if dandelion is no longer a color in the box
if you can’t see the Northern Lights tonight
if my cat yowls at nothing in the morning
if you decide not to move to Brooklyn
if these words get marked with a yellow highlighter
if this building never gets built
if that wall doesn’t come down
if I don’t recognize you either after seven years
if you end up being my last
if I refuse to admit it
if I never wear a swimsuit again
if the geothermal hot pot makes me a liar
if I swim in a blue dress one more time
if I close my eyes before jumping in
if then maybe you instead