Bent spoons on display, the Ohio
down the hill. What is this
warmer place
that is a stranger to me,
that harbors the soul
of someone so familiar—
now gone? This is
where I am now.
Bent spoons on display, the Ohio
down the hill. What is this
warmer place
that is a stranger to me,
that harbors the soul
of someone so familiar—
now gone? This is
where I am now.
How to wash a wall
clean escapes me. The stained
yellow frame
of life happened
has marked where the black
and white Flat Iron
Building photo hung
in elongation. Always a phallic
comment, but that’s not it. And
now I want to hang you—
your black, white, and gray
evocation of guitar and train—
your one fast move or I’m gone
tour memorabilia on that spot. But
you won’t fit. A black line
from the edge
of a chest of drawers,
a tiny crack
in the new frame
I’ve bought to hold you in.
A collection of flaws—not a god in sight.
So a woman walks into a bar
with an empty stage
near the back door. She sees a saint
who looks like Willie Nelson
knocking back a shot, decides to ask him
to grant her a wish. “Please, please, please
oh messenger of God, please
let me win the lottery.” No
response. He orders another. She leaves.
Comes back the next night. Same saint, same
question—same silence.
The next night—all the same. Finally,
on the evening of a full moon, she enters
the bar to find the saint sitting on a stool
on the stage with a beat-up, old Gibson
Advanced Jumbo. She begins again, “Please,
please, oh messenger. . .” He interrupts her—“You know,
when I think of saints, I think of
Jay Farrar. Oh, and baby, would you be willing
to buy a ticket this time?”
She writes about cities—Cincinnati, Red
Wing, Newport, Kent, Fort
Worth—before she sees them
to prepare her soul
for any embedded poetry
that might work itself loose
beneath her feet. Each place is a place
called home
for someone. No one
can knock her off
her footing without her consent.
She just can’t wait
for planes to land, trains
to pull into stations.
Shellac the night
to morning, morning to
afternoon. A mail box
and a lamp post
uprooted and toppled
onto the only path left. Action lies
beneath frozen rain sheets. What begins
may endure longer than anyone
might imagine. And then there’s the full moon.
Is this the right number
of times to have lost
myself to this sound—yours? To fly
solo over traffic
air currents low enough
to see each housing
development curl
into its cul de sac
mortal coil, to trace
each bend in the rivers between
Cincinnati and Cleveland—Little
Miami, Mohican, Cuyahoga,
Chagrin. To be high
enough to know it is possible
to survive this state
without losing my sense
of direction for the gathering
of waters. The tally stretches across
the greatest mud. Take me home.
is no accident, is my passive
aggressive mapping of my own
heart. I know
it is not what you are
called (or those few choice
words we exchanged)
that made me sick. I know
my body’s internal mechanisms
are of no concern to you. Still,
I can swallow this dream—panacea
that floats to the top. To say it
aloud is too much.
For Sheri
A child takes
a piano
lesson upstairs, strong
brew purchased below,
the teacher sings. I wish
she wouldn’t. Then it stops. Newspaper
pages rustle—an old
fashioned sound. All the text
messages I don’t hear
take me from this pivot
point. An elbow
aches, and still I will sling
a bag over the same
shoulder to risk
intersections to get to you.
But can I meet the streets
of Cincinnati
where traffic accidents
hit too close
to home? I only hope to recognize her
soul gently touching my arm
when I look both ways.
All exits are emergency
escapes from moments
that have died.
Write tiny epitaphs
for each and be accused
of living in the past. Without
them there would be
no future. The time has come
to forgive
our younger selves.
Zippers, buckles, snaps. Buttons
are boring. Based on this,
she prepares her fingers
for the nimble dream.