Lining Inside

“The held breath of the world at 5 pm in winter.”
—Garth Risk Hallberg, City on Fire

She keeps her pockets empty.
Daylight is precious this time of year.

She keeps her pockets empty.
Driverless cars will give the unlicensed permission to feel.

She keeps her pockets empty.
Thick gloves interrupt her thoughts indoors.

She keeps her pockets empty.
The time has come to make room for winter.

She keeps her pockets empty.
A small bird chirps behind a tree trunk.

She keeps her pockets empty.
Everywhere else is too full the day after.

She keeps her pockets empty.
The wind slips through so easily.

She keeps her pockets empty.
The park reopens before dawn.

She keeps her pockets empty.
Some skylines regenerate like livers.

She keeps her pockets empty.
No kangaroo crosses her path or breaks her stride.

She keeps her pockets empty.
When an actor forgets his lines, she remembers how to scream.

She keeps her pockets empty.
Geocachers lose themselves inside a discovered letterbox.

She keeps her pockets empty
to make room for an exhale of visible breath.

Interrogation Point (U+2E2E)

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what if
tonight’s full moon cracks
spills onto our tree branches

what if there is no moon
at all
ever again

what if an empty room
roars at double the decibels
of a packed music venue

and the voices
are all yours

what if what if
is eliminated
from our vocabulary

and the ?
becomes an earring
you lost years ago

all the answers
might tumble
off the shelf

when you open
the closet door

and the shape of hangers
will signify
our dismay

Escalator Guts

Exposed.
A garbage kiosk
blocks the lower landing.
It’s a long way down. Hardened
debris won’t cushion
the fall. The metallic taste
of words she spits out
lingers on the roof of her

A mannequin in men’s
activewear impersonates
one eighth of an octopus—
the left arm unhinged
and dangling
from a blue checked
jersey sleeve,
extra long.

No beak, no spin, no ink,
no sea, no reason
to trust anything
as it seems. A drawn curtain
means keep out
or keep in.
Not an invitation
to slither through.

Silence coils
a tight spring

under her breath
into an empty lift

she uses to unload
her fear

of continuous loops
and fire escapes.

I Go To

a dark place
with all the lights out
the death of dictionaries
leaves me empty

afraid to speak
more afraid not to

a dark place
where Steely Dan plays
on the radio
and I’m too numb

to change
the station

who listens
to the radio anymore
who listens
for the train

that already disappeared
down a tunnel
darker than the dark
I go to

There Go the Leaves

Time to stop
memorizing erased lines.

Forget borders to red
and gold memories

of events
she didn’t experience.

No one did,
or no one’s admitting

anything. Brown
branches claw their way

through a charcoal sky
to the other side.

And she kisses drizzled air,
so relieved to live

where four seasons
dare to break through.

She’ll Float

A dab of red
paint or polish
left on a wooden
four-top. Glossed over,

she refuses to be
completely forgotten.
None of them says
good-bye. They just leave

a trail of phantoms
with black
(and blue)
nails and lips.

She doesn’t ride
the train with any of them.

One drowned
in his own
swimming pool
(no vomit)

like a chipmunk
or rolling stone
or unidentified man
seeking a closer look.

She swims
in oceans
and tidal straits.
Always hated baths.

Did I Lose You

when I said
the love of my life
is a city—The City.

When I reminded you
of an attraction
that can only strike

when you’re 17 and 19,
or 20 and 22, or
even that’s too late.

Too late to remember
when to hold hands,
when to let go.

When I dared
to defy the backward constellation
on the Grand Central ceiling.

When I refused to telegraph
my good-bye through the lower concourse
whispering gallery.

And we never shared
martinis inside the Oyster Bar.

October Here to There in Six Easy Steps

1.

She digs through the closet
in search of that bag
filled with stupid knit
hats and gloves. Sooner

and sooner trespasses with ice
and wind and snow.

2.

The experiment fails
on the old Iron Range.
Where are those damn mittens?
Before it’s too late,

come down
to your senses.

3.

Steal this plot
instead. Dance on
CBGB’s grave. Recite
a poem on the other side

of the Bowery, or in the alley
that tells no secrets.

4.

Use your imagination.

5.

The rhythm will follow—
down a sidewalk grate,
land on top of a subway train
heading to Brooklyn,

become unrecognizable
when it resurfaces

6.

in Coney Island.
It will ask itself:

How did I get here?
You will answer:

All beats lead to a beach
on an island no longer an island in fall.

Full Scaley

If she could print
a durable lover
whose limbs wouldn’t snap off
during the vacuuming stage.

And a little boathouse
where he could rest at night.

And a custom runabout
for early morning wakeboarding.

If, then
she would print
his kisses in burnished colors
to match the October sky.

Between Piers

I walk with solitude
along Melancholy Boulevard
to reach those dunes.

I walk with solitude
through night cooling sand
and tangled beach plum branches
to follow rumors
of a single file passageway.

I will follow solitude
into the tide
through watery caves
to witness a deeper joy.