An Exhaling Introvert

Counts backwards
till she can’t breathe. She pretends
a message will appear 

at zero
on a screen addressed to her
from you. A different kind 

of marring,
you’ll be asking for it.
Hard on the lips, 

her pressure increases
as your resistance
goes down. Exaltation.

1963

He was minus three
when those songs from heaven
were playing on
AM radio. I was zero. 

When he was zero, I was
in Northern Illinois
learning how
to say three instead 

of free.
I would never be
so much so again. No multiples
will return me 

to that coincidence—one
he’ll never know.