Didn’t see it
coming—this Zen
sadness over the leaving
you. Fear, anxiety, yes,
even anger over a smokeless
sky. Didn’t know
that last flicker would remind me
so much of him
Didn’t see it
coming—this Zen
sadness over the leaving
you. Fear, anxiety, yes,
even anger over a smokeless
sky. Didn’t know
that last flicker would remind me
so much of him
I’ll write everything down
so I can forget
you and how you were my last
smoking one, my last
lover to take flame
so literally, the one daily
companion left to invite me
to climb those pariah stairs. It’s time
to put you in the cupboard
behind those pans I never use.
The only things left to shake
are these hands—then they’ll quit too.