Hermit Crab

Whoever can write
about home on demand
has never been challenged
by the prospect of losing
its meaning. The place where I was born

holds no promise
of belonging. Have seen it
once since I left at six
months. Where I met my husband
means nothing because

there is no husband. If home is
where you hang
yourself, I can almost call this town
on the Mississippi the place. Almost. But
what about The City? The Atlantic Ocean?

It could be where you build
your own Take No Heroes Hotel
from some abandoned structure
with former lives peaking through.

Pretty Good Friday

AKA is not FKA is
not who she thinks
you are. How to feel saudade

about the name
of a place, not the place
itself. She wonders if

we are what we eat
on the way to choosing the one
that will stick.

Outside the Library

That ballerina on the back
of a bus, inventions
to relieve
sinus pressure before
all the trees
bloom. For the one who walks
alongside—wild
flowers mostly. And rants the color
of wisteria
early on.

April First

What tricks
will the day play
on her, she wonders. And she wonders

which former
lover will seep
through the retaining wall. One from here

or one from back east.
Those two in California
were not always so far west. She’s not

a humorless bitch.
She repeats. Not a humorless
bitch—just because she’s not

laughing with the day.

Ascension

This is the spot—the table
beside the escalator. Orange metal
railings mean nothing
to each stranger who steps aboard. She counts

the walkers—only one
so far. Stand
on the right, pass
on the left. She learned it

in the London Tube,
rediscovered it in the NYC Subway,
won’t let it go above
or below grade. It never made it

to this side of the Mississippi. Movement
along these banks depends—
on everything, even
that orange rail.

Sacrificial

She vows not
to fear the rain
that may come. Words
she may exchange
with a stranger, banker,
barista, vintage dress
shop owner. The best
road to ending
sentences. Answering
the phone. She has said
no vows
before—fears
it may be too late.

Uncharted

To believe a city’s breathing
can awaken prairie grass,
to know a river
did not freeze

behind her, to inspect
high clouds in search

of an old lover’s
face (any one would do)
is to be
more than a witness

to these strange days,
stranger nights.

It’s More than the Step Streets

More than the foot I broke
outside Van Cortlandt Park.
And the friends

and family and
strangers who visited
me up there. To be at the end

of the line
at night and first
on the train the next

morning, to be safely wedged
northwest, to be rich
in two hours’ worth of rhythmic

thought each day is
to be more than the sum
of 160 steps up.