Big Sur

How to memorize a place
like Big Sur
without becoming a thief
is a mystery no cabin

key with a plastic Holiday Inn
shaped tab can slide into, let alone
unlock. It hurts
to witness this dangerous

beauty’s power to break into
the securely fastened chamber
of emotion inside
me. It’s not the dilemma

of choosing to die by a roadside
snake bite or by becoming roadkill
under the wheels
of a musician who never was your lover’s van.

It’s not a choice. The white line will crop the shoulder
how it will at the most substantial curves
in the two lane highway. And I won’t remember
when they come—so busy trying to commit

the impossible reality
of rock and wave and height and crash
to a memory that cannot be
committed. And I could be
in my wobbly attempt.

The Rex Is Dead

Another one comes down—across
the street from where I use to go

down nightly
into daily into morning. No more

hardware to sell. Only rubble and blue and yellow
painted brick remain

in a cloud of heat
intensified dust. Kitty corner, I am

salvage after a wrecking
ball of my own

undoing swings through.

Petty Theft

Could have been a splice
there instead. A second
difference in the time
it takes to melt
this scene without 

an actor into a bacon
strip I wouldn’t
eat but allow myself
to smell is 

all it takes
to turn a life
around and back
over green rushes before
summer scorches brown.

Around the Corner from the Red Dragon

Dyed bone is why
she pauses before she
goes too far. Whose or what kind 

disturbs her
casual circuit through an arts
and crafts fair behind a bar— 

coffee not whiskey. Burnt
red not dirty
white. And the adult 

only
photos in locket
frames interest her least of all.

In Defense of Your Grandmother’s

Vo-tech, high-rise
stack of comic book
spines, staples get removed. 

I’m not ready to give
up Babel or what Borges said.
I won’t slam.

Avowal

Do I dare—I do not—
to buy a snuff
bottle. Hand-painted,
it comes in a small gold thread
embroidered box
with a latch. If a peach 

adorned its glass shell, would I
then? Afraid to ask

questions, I let wondering build
a safety berm
around my modern moat.
What swims through
my muck and murdered
words would not bear 

any rings. They’re everywhere—
on fingers, hanging 

from ears, wrapped around
planets, even this curved channel
I’ve dug to keep nobody
out. I don’t burn
rose oil, it’s the water
I want to sniff. 

It’s this desire
I need to contain.

Letter to Another World

Emily Dickinson’s soul mate rides
a bicycle down my street. I can tell
it’s him by the way he compresses
his shoulders between parked
and moving cars. Handsome and nimble,
Emily, constant and quick.

Timing Still Is

If she rushes, she can reach the farmers
market before metal saw 

horses get collapsed, planks
loaded onto the truck, leftover
watermelon rolled away. If 

she slows down, she might catch
a note or two trapped
inside clouds from last night’s concert 

under the stars in collision
with a 24-hour jack hammer
breaking up a bridge.

Dead Dragonfly

At rest in a crack in the sidewalk, you
are my first outdoor capture. 

It’s a digital finale
to a naturally 3D life.  The green and purple 

beauty of your wings
has not yet rubbed off. A flash 

of rain makes me scramble
to protect my equipment. I slip 

it and the figment
of you into a purse pocket 

specially designed for the occasion.  I can’t
help but feel like a thief in all dimensions.