Ode to 2012

More than ready to close
the book

on this year. New cases bought
and assembled. Shelves and volumes

remembered, dusted, rearranged. A new order—but
too much left

unsaid. A beautiful birth, a transformative
death, I stand

somewhere between
living my life.

2012 in Review

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600 people reached the top of Mt. Everest in 2012. This blog got about 2,600 views in 2012. If every person who reached the top of Mt. Everest viewed this blog, it would have taken 4 years to get that many views.

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Beware Neglected Candles (or, Another Year)

A weatherman’s heart,
a three-alarm
fire two miles south, the furnace

kicks in, a hiss
that warms, cause
unknown, to kick it

just for today,
let the cat out
the back door, safety

from what you think
you want, draws
to a close.

Four Months

The dullness
of this count does not mirror

the flash
of metal that cuts longing

into irregular slices
of grief.

No steady hand
can regulate how

it gets measured, how
another day will fold

open with his absence
now ink

that has set into the fibers—
bleeds and all.

Five-Seeded Still Life

Even if she did eat
pears, it wouldn’t have mattered.
He still would have expected

love too soon. Would still be drinking
too much
red wine strangely chilled

to notice how
she devours green apples.

Both Travel as Waves

The last word
appears suddenly, strikes
like lightning
without any thunder
no matter
how long I count.

One Hundred Days, or Memento Mori VIII

Why count the piled-up
hours of grief? As I get closer

to our number 8—
another day

in the last month
of a depleted year—

I realize even tipped
on its side,

its resemblance
to infinity

is a mirage. Even 8
is not immortal.

Rain on the First Day of December

A cold apartment
is a cold apartment
regardless. If

the boiler
that generates heat
within is broken,

the answer
is not to smash

potted plants
onto the sidewalk. It’s not
the stoop’s fault.