Roadkill in black
eyeliner walks
through rain-soaked streets.
Some drift ghosted back
into shaken
frames, the brittle
bone long since crushed
and brushed off. Others resurrect
their posture in long black
boots to strut tall
toward their new hero
worship—could be shadow
dancing, could be a spiritual
awakening to a higher
burn of wheels over the real man
hole concealing their souls.
To eat lemon
cake with a spoon,
to dream of walking on
that bridge with you
(not beneath it
in a tourist vessel),
to be so confident
grace will follow
is to be willing to go
where there are no
sidewalks and still reach
the hotel before it rains.
To choose to stay
there instead of in
a house, to fantasize
about local lobbies
and dimly lit bars
encased in translucent glass
and steel where the coffee is
strong and black, to imagine
the sound of an elevator door
opening at my feet
is the closest I come to memorizing
the music woven
into the fabric of this chaise
we might share.
They’re breaking through.
It feels early. I feel late
to wake to the songs
everyone else hums.
I am overripe
to the ones I replay
because addiction is nothing
if not relentless
repetition. Will the lyric
alter slightly with this listening
to make it all about me?
If I can recover
from the need to be
your you, perhaps you
will relent—give one
up for me.
They say be
in the moment.
I say I want to be
in that moment—that night
three summers ago
on a boat as it changes
its course beneath the Brooklyn Bridge.
Pause into slow turning, live
guitars propel the motion.
Or that moment after
the boat has docked
on the bank of the Cuyahoga,
the sound of guitars
still rings
in my ears—lips
on mine before I know
what or who
is happening. But not that
moment followed by the next
of seemingly unending sea
sickness on a ferry
as it rocks across
the Aegean. And not that one still
to come that I cannot
fathom. How do I become
willing to let go of the old rail
to recognize when another exalted one
might strike? This question hangs
on tight.
Amy Nash will be reading her poetry at the Fireroast Mountain Cafe in South Minneapolis on Saturday, April 3rd, at 7 pm. The address and website are:
Fireroast Mountain Cafe
3800 37th Avenue South
Minneapolis, MN 55406
www.fireroastmountaincafe.com
Multiple star, high
end hotel with its opaque
smoke and mirror
windows and dark
corridor leading to a bar
she just wants to see
to steal a setting
for her make-believe
life. She doesn’t wear
her glasses. She won’t
go inside. Her nearsightedness
leaves her
outside conjuring
up sidewalk
impressions instead.
I collected them
from their metal button holes
in a women’s bathroom stall.
I tucked one
behind your ear, the other
behind mine. I did what I could
with them: message
in red, in elongated green,
message in true thorn.
I did
what I could.
Should I have
taken them
with me when I left
your room at dawn?
A perfect poem
of the ridiculous becomes
subtle, becomes two roses
crossed on a table
we left behind
by choice,
we left behind
by choice,
say it twice
for both of us,
for what’s left of them.
Night & Day Poems of Amy Nash 